On this day, in the year 2011, my life as a mommy changed. I met my youngest daughter. I did not give birth to her but my heart grew and then the moment she was placed in my arms a flood of emotions came over me. This precious little life, created by God, entrusted to me and Brian. A life needing love, protection, guidance, and acceptance. Then what is so different? She waited almost 4 long, agonizing, solitary years. When sickness overtook her she suffered alone. At night she was not tucked in. Kisses and sweet songs were never sung.
He knew Carrington needed a mommy and that was to be me!
Carrington came home looking like a scared and emaciated child. We did not know how she held on for so long other than to say God had a purpose for her. She had not eaten for so long that she could not keep any amount of nutrition in her so her body went into starvation mode. Comfort to her was not something she could handle. Touch was actually painful for her. Eye contact was so rare. Smiles, when they rarely came, were through severely rotted teeth. No one took the time or interest to make sure she received proper nutrition and love.
Then you take a look at today. One year later from the day we met her. 10 months later from the day she landed on U.S. soil only to be taken to a hospital so she could receive all the medical attention her little body needed. Now Carrington is a vivacious, entertaining, smiling, laughing, loving child with more than enough arms to hold her and love on her. She not only has gained weight, sitting in at a healthy 26lbs. 8.5oz but she is learning to eat while sitting at the table with her family. I did not do this. God did this. He knew what she needed and provided for her just as He promised.
My sweet angel has done more for me than I have ever or could ever do for her! Through Carrington I have seen and felt more connected to God. He was always and will always be here for me but it wasn't until Carrington that I acknowledged that. Carrington has inspired me to help so many little children who wait and wait for their mommy and daddy to come rescue them and take them home. She has grown my heart ten fold, or as my son would say 6499. I have been given an opportunity to mother this amazing child of God. Thank you Jesus for trusting me, believing in me to raise such a beautiful and sweet little girl!
Mommy loves you Carrington Ann Burman!!